twisted logic

2007-03-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

save me from my shoes and dress fettish. dress number 9 has arrived btw.

2007-03-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

pple! im here to gush. yes mtv vj utt walked past me today. like really brush past cuz he was coming from the opposite direction. he was with three other pple. but that's not the point. the point is.. he smiled at me! haha stupid me din request for a photo with him. and i realised that i've missed out more than one of such chances. the last time was with randell tan.. damn cute. he was just stoning there but i had no guts. haha. another time was with this chinese actor whuse name i dunno but also quite cute haha. yeah basically ive been seeing quite a lot of all these stars recently lah.

yupp. that's all i wanna talk about for today. no mood to type more. ill update another time. chao.

2007-02-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

i almost puked blood today. or more like, my heartbeat stopped for 0.0000002351 seconds today. so that prob stopped the blood puking huh. yeah so this was what happened. My Aunt who works at moe calls "hello ting, so hows ur A level results?".. i went "huh?".. then she said " out already today right?".. that was when my heartbeat stopped. i almost died. but im still alive and kicking cuz i havent collected the results. haha so basically she recieved an email talking about the results coming out and read the date wrongly. yeap. so it's coming out this friday, which actually doesnt make things any better.

and im bloody pmsing today. the jog in the afternoon din help. but at least i managed to fix my creative muvo all by myself today! judging from how much an IT idiot i am, this is an achievement k. i downloaded the software and fixed it. so now i have my music back. yay. im definately gonna need it on friday to cheer myself up after recieving my results. damn. i think im doomed. alright i shall stop ranting about that for now.

anw i found out some interesting stuff at my office today! yay news. and gossip. which i shall not post up here in order to protect the company's interest. haha but they were good. at least it injects some excitment and humour into my otherwise pretty boring job.

yeap so this is it for now. btw, i absolutely love the song grace kelly by mika. pple go check it out.

2007-02-24T12:01:00.000+08:00

alright i am.. back to update. and hey, it hasn't been 10 yrs since i last updated so it's not too bad right? haha.. anw, here's a huge happy cny to everyone! i wish everyone good health and prosperity.. yupp. cny so far has been fun. cliched. but still pretty fun. a little different. and many things has happened this cny. good ones. bad ones. plenty of them. but anw, the point is, that's not the point. haha.

oh i actually caught 3 movies at the theatres within 4 days. the protege, miss potter and dreamgirls. all pretty good movies! daniel wu is cute. drop dead gorgeous cute. haha. yes. oh and i think As results are coming out really soon. like soon. and im definately not looking forward to that. but oh wells.

and im officially very irritated with the lion and dragon dance troupes. i had them ytd at my office. and i bloody hell had to scream thru e phone talking to clients cuz it was so damn deafening. haha and this morning. super early. like 9 plus? they had to start then.. and it went on for an hour. my sleep was disrupted. like bloody hell. haha. but the point is, that's not the point. i dun get their performances really.. it's noisy and boring. honestly.

alright. i think i need to catch up with lotsa pple for now. lots! hello pple! let's meet up soon. and xun, yw and ruo!.. st nicks visitation! hurry let's go.. before it gets torn down. oh man i think im actually gonna miss the building.. alrights it's lunchtime.. chao for now!

2007-02-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes. somewhere. somehow. someday. nobody. nowhere. nothing.

help.

2007-02-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

I am happy! Yay.

For work though, i am officially a full time paper shredder. Part time scanner cum data entry secretary, occasional mailroom visitor. Yes. But then again, i think i can proudly say i'm the pro-est paper shredder in the whole of singapore, jb and some say batam. and guess what, i get bags of shredded paper for my hard work okay! goodstuff. muaha. But i'm starting to like the job place really. despite the energy draining paper shredding work, i've got a wonderful bunch of collegues. Yeap. not those who give me work that is. they're nice people. they're just not around most of the time. haha. the really wonderful ones are those that aren't from my department. crappy, noisy, energetic bunch. talking to them is pure fun.

Yup. Plus, I just went shopping! And i've got two new dresses. Yes i know i've alr got lots. but hey! two more wouldnt hurt right. they're really pretty. plus. i din have to pay for them. or rather, the money spent wasnt my money. haha.

Alrights. enough of my blabbering. back to life. cny is coming. im so excited. yes i am. it's february. the red month. the short month. and when the month's over, results will be out. damn. that one, i'm not excited for.

2007-01-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

alrighty.. im finally here to update! haha yes ms yw i read ur tag.. so naggy tsk! hahaha anw blogger has changed so much i almost lost my way in here. like.. yeah. but hey smart me manages to come in to add a new post anw. so yeah. i'm working. yes pple. i'm an oh so important secretary at AIA! yayyers.. ahha and i work from 9 to 3 everyday. so feel free to ask me out anytime after that! =)) alrights my work was kinda shitty initially. but cuz now i've learnt the stuff and im more familiarised with the way things work.. i guess work is now pretty fun. and yes i've learnt alot. hah.

plus i'm learning driving! yeah manual. ubi. private inst. suicidal i know. but hey i like challenges okay. lol. so right that's my life now basically. exciting huh. haha. okay i shall quit being sarcastic. and say that it is pretty exciting i must say cuz i still have occasional meetups with pple.. but it's getting lesser by the week cuz everyone's so busy =(

so right. ive finally watched a movie at cathay! i must say the seats are really comfy. yeah. and the popcorn is good! finally some good popcorn. sweet. yeah.

and i'm currently watching some really good channel u hongkong drama everynight. war and beauty. yes. interesting show. teaches you how to tackle the bitches and bastards in life. good plot i must say. intelligent script. and i've watched borat! it's really funny. besides being crude it really mocks intelligently too. yeap. pple you should catch it. somehow.. yes. k so this is my life for now. signing out now. shall be back to update in ten years. see you pple then! hah.

2006-12-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

yes i'm back from my trip pple! haha i was actually back two days ago.. but was too lazy to update. but hey better late than never right. so anw, the trip was fun! i thought it lasted a little bit too soon! yeah but anw, in case if you guys forgot, i went to thailand, udon thani and laos, vientiane! for 5 days. though technically, it aint 5 days cuz we left only in the evening on the first day. So anw, the first day and a little bit of the second day was at thailand. yeah then we took the coach to laos on the second day.. then stayed there till the fourth day and made our way back to thailand.. oh did i mention that i thought the hotel room at thailand was a little scary? haha i think it's just me though. i happen to always be extremely weary of the hotel rooms i stay in.. so anw, this time, i prefered my room at laos.. the photos below will show you why..

this is the room at thailand

room at laos

yeah so from the rooms above, obviously the one at laos is cosier aint it! okay maybe it's just me..haha.. so anw, sightseeing at laos was good. went to ALOT of temples.. each had it's own style.. but they're all really pretty! i'm not gonna post too many photos up here you guys can ask me for it if you wanna see them =).. ill put up a few though. my artistic shots. haha

yup and here are some photos i took of the sunset at the mekong river. i though the sunset was sweet!

and then we also went for a boat cruise on this man made lake where we had lunch on the boat and then i went up to the deck to take photos. here's one of my mum and i.

plus we also went to some market and i ate fried grasshoppers and worms. haha they were good! here's some photos for proof.. i aint bluffing! the pics aint pretty so don't say i didnt warn you!

yes that last photo was me with four worms stuck in my mouth. it's purely taken for proof.. haha. yeapp oh and i did the massage at my laos hotel! for two nights in a row. the first night was full body massage. second night was just foot massage.. good stuff! cheap too. though it was a little bit painful.. haha yupp then anw we went back to thailand.. went to their shopping mall.. there was a robbinsons in it.. but the prices were the same, if not more expensive than those in singapore! but the shops in the mall sold stuff at pretty cheap prices. so yeah.. i bought 3 bags! haha and then we also went to the night market.. i bought a damn nice dress! yay at a really good price.. 11 bucks i think. yeapp. overall the trip was good! though there were too many old people. but i met some really nice young people too! yup.. so anw, i'm still missing the trip! as well as people i've known from my tour group.. haha for more details on my trip, come ask me personally! =)

2006-12-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

heyy pple.. i'm gonna be mia in the next prob 5 days or so.. won't be in singapore! i'll be in laos and thailand eating dead scorpions.. so yeah don't miss me too much or what! haha i'll update after i get back..

2006-12-16T14:22:00.000+08:00

alright i'm here to update again! i actually wanted to update last night but i was wayy to tired when i got back.. so anw here i am!.. yup i went kboxing with esther, xh and jess ytd! kbox was good okay.. we had SO MUCH FUN!! haha and pathetic me only knew e chorus of e songs.. whilst some songs i din know at all.. haha right and everyone were such pro singers okay! that's why we went to kbox lol.. then after that i had to rush home for dinner because i promised my mum ill be having dinner with her!.. so yeah i rushed back from town for dinner..

then i had to rush out again!.. met my cousins at lido to watch eragon.. yeah it was this charity event thing and each ticket costs 50 bucks.. but anw i din have to pay lahh.. yuppers.. haha eragon was like a mixture of harry potter, lotr and star wars. enuf said. i'm not gonna spoil it for those who are intending to watch it. but it was pretty interesting. a little predictable. would have been better if i didn't watch hp, lotr and star wars lol.. then anw.. after e movie.. i met eunice and ck with eun's friends in e theatre! what a small world right.. i just met up with them the day before but my cousin said that we were behaving like we havent seen each other in 50 years lol.. oh and i just met caiping on e streets that afternoon.. yepp then i went to have taiwan porridge for supper at the oasis! DAMN NICE!lol i was kinda like relieving my chilhood cuz i think the last time i went there i was 2 yrs old and running about. not eating.. haha.. right so anw.. that's about all for nw. anyone want insights on eragon.. ask me! ahah

2006-12-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

been out for the past two days! in fact.. i've been out for the past two plus weeks! hahha yess i met up with my tuition teacher for lunch today.. she's 23 btw.. then anw we went to mango sale.. and we met her friend.. who asked her whether i was her collegue.. (like thanks do i really look that old?).. haha.. there was nth interesting in mango really.. or more like.. i didnt have anymore money to spend haha.. haha so anw aft that i went to ikea with eunice and ck! haha it was fun taking photos ard w e furniture and stuff lol.. cam whoring haha.. and ck was acting stupid.. lol.

haha and anw i met up with abz ytd! we had a good time catching up! (right abz!) haha yeah walked around.. got new pumps! and nice pro abz just fixed my blog so you guys can tag just right! haha..

okayy omg i realised im such a boring blogger.. i shall update when i find sth interesting to write about.. cuz i dunno what to write about right now haha..

2006-12-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

I am back! yay i'm finally here to update. now let me explain my absence. it was due largely to laziness.. and then there's the As and also.. the stupid tagboard wasnt working so ill be quite sian if i blog and i'm unable to read my tags!.. so now.. kind abby has helped me fixed my blog! so pro! yupp and now you can all drop me a msg at my cbox! new and improved!

anw okay back to what i was supp to have said two weeks ago. MY As are over! yes. felt like it was ages ago alr somehow.. haha yepp and i'm not thinking about it anymore cuz obviously now's not the time to think about such distressing thoughts lol. but anw, i am officially broke! going out everyday without having a salary to go with, it makes me a really poor woman! but then i've been having fun so far.. yupp i'll be going overseas next wk! 19th to the 23rd to laos and thailand. to sightsee. yep no shopping but sightseeing! and i am excited.. really! i love seeing all e ancient buildings and stuff!

anw i have done so many things in the past two weeks, i really dunno which event i should start talking about but i guess it'll prob bore the shit outta you guys so i'll try making things short.. yup.. i've been watching prison break! i think everyone should catch it no matter how busy they are. it's damn exciting.. and an absolute pleasure to watch.. please pple. catch it. haha. go get e dvds or what!..

okayy i've been catching up with so many people lately! minding.. shopping.. movies..clubbing.. lol you know e usual stuff. haha. anw i've been wanting to talk about this incident i had on the train about a week ago.. yupp was taking nel to town.. then this heavily pregnant woman entered the train at boonkeng station.. then there wasnt any available seat around so she had to stand. everyone was.. well being selfish and pretended that they havent seen her.. ( i was standing btw and there were tons of young and healthy pple sitting down).. then... this ah pek who looked like he was 70 plus actually stood up and gave his seat to her..yup and it made me wonder what the world is coming to man.. i mean.. a 70+ ah pek giving up his seat to a pregnant lady when he needs that seat as much as she does? hmm i think the world needs a little bit more love. yep haha i know i'm no samaritan.. but i guess if we all do a little good each day we'll only bring joy to e pple around us as well as to ourselves right??

haha yepp.. oh wells.. i'm tired for now.. went minds with eu, ck, oky and cp just now! had lot's of fun! and yepp i'm tired.. i need some rest.. yupp i'll leave it here for now. i'll be updating more often from now on i promise! haha oh btw, i have A LOT of new tops, 5 new dresses, new belt, new shoes, new wallet, new skirts, new accessories, and a new test coming up soon that i have to prepare for lol.. be jealous pple! hahaha =)

2006-09-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

alright the prelims are over.. and somehow when the prelims are over things start happening. or more like..i'm suddenly more aware of things(probably cuz i chose to ignore the world when i had my exams haha).. i never realised how much the world around me has changed in such a short period of time..(not exactly only during prelims lah probably for a few months or so) the people i know are not the same anymore. things that used to be so familiar are now gradually getting foreign to me. i hate to think about it but probably in another short period of time things will probably be totally unrecognisable. but yeah i dun wanna talk about this today.

what i wanna say is.. the most important thing in the end is to cherish what you have each day and to live like it's your last. I know it sounds cliched, but only when you really put yourself into each experience will you then end each day fufilled. even when you are thrown into a situation unexpectedly, especially when it doesn't concern you, you should still embrace the situation like it's a gift to be experienced.

so anyhow, i realised that many things have thrown me into the future while my thoughts have drifted to the past due to many present encounters. i don't know how to explain it. but i guess some of you know what i mean. yeah so anw, the above was just another one of shu's not so lengthy theories which is probably incomprehensable to everyone. so it's okay. i just needed to rant. haha

oh btw, im missing many many people! you know who you people are =)) love! =)

the tommy lee lover.

2006-08-31T18:28:00.000+08:00

a minute entry here.

i'm totally into rock star supernova. singapore idol is officially a waste of time.

i love tommy lee! he's the hottest thing around. =)

mugging sucks. seriously the mugbug's bitting me! ouch. (lesson learnt : staring at notes doesnt make information diffuse in. studying notes makes me fall asleep. doing questions makes me feel demoralised.)

my english birthday falls on the same day as my chinese birthday! =) it's the same for everyone who turns 19 this yr.. yeah it happens every 19 years..

yup. here's the end of my minute entry.
btw, thanks for all the encouragement! i know you guys miss me. LOL.. i miss you guys too =) meet up after As! =)

2006-07-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

right was just looking at the trailer on tv for "The Lake House" today.. and every other day.. and i can't help but feel that it's not gonna be a good imitation of the korean movie "IL Mare".. (yeah they koped the exact same story from that movie).. but hey there's keanu reves.. so there's still some good to it..

yeah and anw im feeling a tad too guilty now cuz i actually stole the pressing of the bus bell from a little girl.. haha you know how kids love to press the "bus stopping" bell? yeah so anw i was on the bus one day.. then this little girl wanted to do so. but i din know. so i pressed it just as she was abt to press the bell.. yeah then she turned towards me and looked like she was gonna cry.. opps.

i realised that i've got teachers that pronounce and spell words funnily. but hey. they spice up the lesson. i ain't gonna mention the teachers' names here though. since teachers' day is coming.. i shall show a little respect. but anyway, here's an example. think "channel protein" being pronounced as "chanel protein"..(since when did the protein become a brand name?? hahah)

i can't believe another week just flew by. the pressure is getting all too intense. i think i'm gonna burst. i get so frustrated each time i think about the months ahead. so near the end. yet so far. i want it to end quickly. yet i don't want time to pass so fast. how ironic.

i've got withdrawal symptoms. from everything. it's time to retire to the bed.

I'm such a Dreamer

2006-07-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

here's a sneak peak to my infatuation. there's a reason why i love him so much. and there's a thousand more reasons why he's the armani model. (kaka-my love.. yes i know i'm living in my own world.. but just let me dream a little bit more.. haha )

Pirates!

2006-07-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

i watched pirates of the carribean today!!! yay! met up with esta, anu, xh, mandy, ooodz, yafen with guest appearances from abby! and apparently eetse appeared too but i din see him. opps sorry eetse! haha anw, the show was really really funny.. like really.. but the ending was a tad too abrupt.. i mean.. i dunno how to say.. but i felt injustice for my everdearest orlando! haha..kinda lah. but the front portion of the show was so hilarious i laughed till my stomach ached.. and the back part was kinda dark and not so hilarious. but i still kept laughing cuz everytime something pretty shocking happens anu will fly from her seat and scream.. so that kept me entertained..haha..yeah.. and orlando bloom was absolutely charming.. yeaps..

so anws i rushed down to have lunch with my everdearest squaddies! ruo, yiwen, weix, xun.. i love them to bits man! yeah.. chomp chomp food.. it's like the only dinner we ever eat each time we meet up.. but hey it's good food! yum! haha so anw, i had a great great time today!

and anw, for both meetups.. there were lots of gushing on kaka and canavarro! at least on my part that is.. hahahha.. yeah and i seriously didn't want today to end.. it's like.. the start of something i detest.. but i guess it's gonna pass.. soon.. so yeah.. liddat loh..yay italy won.. the golden ball should really go to canavarro.. haha

2006-07-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

alrights.. this entire week was basically just a pmsing week for me. yeah.. haha and i was still lamenting the loss of brazil for the entire week.. and hoping along the way that france will lose.. ut they still made it to the finals.. which of course i'm pretty upset about.. but hey i'm not denying the fact that zidane is damn good.. haha and henry is damn cocky.. and poor christiano ronaldo is getting jeered at each time he touches the ball. think about it. he's damn young and he's got a long long way to go man.. at least in soccer.. then pple rmb him for this.. it's gonna be a pretty sad journey for him yah..hah so anw, i can't wait for the 3rd fourth placing tmr nite.. more like.. i cant wait to get my dose of soccer.. i'm absolutly devastated that there's only two matches left..urgh.. i can't believe it's ending so soon.. and then ill have to wait for four years! four years before brazil wins it back again.. urgh..

so for now.. i'm just looking forward to very short term stuff.. after the world cup that is. but i guess there isnt anything much to look forward to.. esp for the next few months.. oh well.. it's okay. haha.

2006-07-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

severe disappointment is how you describe my mood now. =(

2006-06-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

brazil.. lalalalalala.. haha have you all heard the brazil song on the radio?? hahas.. it's quite nice actually.. kinda like queen's "we are the champions".. the grandness.. yeah you know what i mean. haha anw.. today was singapore idol results. and i have to make it known that i'm SO GLAD jay got thru. otherwise it's gonna be a HUGE waste of pure talent. he can sing. really. so right now, i'm rooting for jay, jonathan and jasmine. yup! though i'm still sticking to my no-voting-just-supporting policy.hahah..

so anws today was a tad too boring for me. the whole day that is. i was like all around the house moping like a spoilt kid. haha but tmr things will be so much better! i've got the whole day packed! with pple i like! =))).. so anws.. i watched "Must Love Dogs" today.. i know i'm a lil bit slow lah.. okays.. very slow haha but hey i watched it with two dogs snuggling up to me.. one on each side of the sofa and i enjoyed the show. yeaps. it was pretty sweet.. haha and i do get weak for romantic comedies sometimes.. haha..so anws, without furthur ado, let me present the loves of my life..

hahah they're so sweet aren't they? i love them to bits! hahaha =)))

2006-06-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

somehow everything that happened recently make it seem like i never will be destined for great things. nomatter how hard i try. and it's seriously demoralising. and it hurts because i know that you'll always have faith in me. nomatter how lousy the outcome is. and it hurts because i know time and again, while ur encouraging me, ur actually hiding that disappointment within, making it seem like ur happy when i know you aren't. and it sucks because i know you've worked hard to make things work.

poor spain. and i was so sure they would win. why france. i hope brazil trashes them flat. but then again if spain made it through id probably have a hard time deciding who to support at the next match, that is, vs brazil. kaka! (whuse married btw to someone my age. life can be so unfair.)..haha..oh wells. k im lazy to blog so much today. shall blog more another day.

yayy friday! i cant wait!

2006-06-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

ogays.. just had this really wonderful dinner.though it was a tad too filling.. was at this brazillian restaurant called samba at ecp... yeah they serve the best bbq meat! ranging from beef to chicken to pork to lamb to sausages to prawns as well as bbq pineapples(sweet juicy and crispy!) haha.. yeah plus for the appetizers.. (it's like this buffet thing..) they've got the best of salads.. as well as the most delicious mashed potato i've had.. and wedges.. yeah.. and they're salad's like this super wide range.. and then their garlic bread's like served right outta e oven.. the crust was crispy and the inside soft and rich.. the whole meal was like fantastic.. so as usual.. shu the pig ate non stop.. yeah i dun usually knw when im full.. so it's only when i stand up that i realised i can't stand properly cuz the food's too heavy inside me.. then i realise that im full.. so yeah.. haha. plusplus.. there's this really cute brazilian guy serving us.. (they actually have waiters.. or chefs i dunno.. holding huge cuts of meat.. then they'll go around slicing meat from that cut into ur plate..) yeah..

plus they actually have a tv outside replaying the argentina match.. the 6 nil one.. so yeah.. i had fun eating while watching argentina control the entire game.. they were fantastic! haha yuppers.. so as you can guess.. im so bloated now i can't concentrate on anything else but blogging. haha. yeaps. but that's all i have for today. look at my oh-so-mundane, extremely bland life. and my aim in life now is to reach the end of As in one piece. I can see the end of it alr. you know what they say.. it's so near yet so far. haha but im not even prepared for the start of it..both mentally.. and you know.. in terms of studies.. urgh. k i shall go and procrastinate.

2006-06-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

a few things i would like to mention today..

1. Paris hilton actually released an album! and they kept playing one of her songs on the radio which for a moment, i thought was sung by gwen stafani. this shows that she can actually pull this off! haha she was actually kinda like.. in tune..so yeah she prolly managed to force the producer to do sth with the songs to make it sound pretty good.. haha

2. singapore idol. gomez is really cute! but he reallllyyyyy can't sing too! hahahha and jay can sing like how damn well? i hope he gets in thru the wildcard show..yeah in the meantime, i'm still supporting jonathan leong!!!

3. I bought 4 new tops and a skirt today! happiness. and i din have to pay for it. muaha.

4. i hate it when people tell me that they havent started mugging. (and i bet they're gonna get str As for the exams.. as usual).. for goodness sake lah, you know you've mugged and you know that i know too. and i dunno what ur trying to prove. but just shut up. cuz i can't be bothered about what you have or haven't done.

5. Thursday in school with fujing.. and wednesday with fujing, qiaoping and louisa was fun. laughter is definately good when there's exams coming up. esp whe you know ur not gonna be able to finish in time. yeah and then watching the garfield trailer and the HL banana milk ad on mobile tv was also hilarious (insider's joke).. haha yeah.

6. monday was at the airport with ruo! haha and we found out that both subways have moved into the place where only pple who have checked in can go to! urgh. irritating. and we actually took e skytrain to get to t1 for subway. saddening. so anws, we went to popeye for lunch. and okays.. i think the chicken and fries are pretty good! yeah

7. tues.. met up with vene stella and yuen! meeting up was good. yays. we took like tons of pictures. and led our typical taitai lives. once in a while is fine. but too often is bad. like omg so much money spent. haha we had lunch. then shortly aft we went drink coffee at starbucks! then.. we went to take neoprints ( our usual ritual).. then we went to tcc for cakes! like goodness.. whole afternoon just eat and drink.. highlife.. hahah

8. I'm exasperated with my fan. it's noisy.

so yeah. that was my life for the past week. i realised their not in order. as in the days of the week. haha but it's still the days of my life.(okay not funny). kk so anws.. i shall continue on my extremely difficult quest to attempt to finishing everything before the hols end. yeah. one week more to go. which technically.. i only have a week more to live. hah.

2006-06-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

muaha okays first and foremost, before i forget.. i saw diyang being interviewed in cleo.. you know that kinda roadside interview one.. haha then they asked him what his favourite superheroine is.. and he said lara croft! haha which is the same as thong meng. so yeah.. good friends have similar tastes.. haha

kk anw today was a looonnng day! okay lah not that long.. but still long enough to make me really tired and drained. haha. so in the day i volunteered as a volunteer for tcl centre to bring the kids out for excursion.. yeah kids of age ranging from about 5 to 10.. so you can imagine how chaotic it was. and it was the first time i have ever had so many kids under my care before.. yeah.. so anw, our first stop was sungei buloh.. yeah.. and then we were off to APSN Centre for adults.. to let the kids interact and learn stuff fr e adults with special needs. yeaps. so the whole experience was quite good. yeah like for the whole day, my "name" ranged from "aunty" to "teacher" to "cher" to "teacher volunteer" to "jiejie"(this one i like.. muaha).. yeah and it was like.. at the very start of the day they were given this excursion worksheet to complete.. then alot o them came to ask me questions and stuff.. then got one boy dunno what's the meaning of the word "swelling" then i had to explain that it's like the "baluku coming outta ur head".. that's swelling. hah. i havent used such language for quite sometime. then another little boy came to ask me "Are you married?". So i said " what do you think?". Then without thinking he replied "YES!". and i was devastated. i actually looked that old. muaha. then later on we were on the bus travelling from sungei buloh to APSN.. then i was taking a short nap then this two kids kept irritating me.. like constantly shouting "wake up! wake UP! WAKE UP!" lol.. but okays.. a lot o them were damn cute and stuff lah.. you just need tons of patience with them.. and the lunch was pretty good.. so yeah at the end of the day.. i still love kids a lot. haha.

Then anw, just met up with my darlings for dinner at chomp chomp! haha ruo, xun, jess, ser and ethel! too bad weix and yiwen couldnt make it. but anws, the few of us ate like we've been starving for 10 days or sth. haha we ordered black carrot cake, satay beehoon, satay, popiah, stingray, chicken wings, pizza, hao zian, kangkong, huge mugs of sugar cane juice.. yeah about there lah. haha madness right. lol and the plan was to go drink and chill aft that at xun's place! of which i think they're doing now. and im not. saddening. but they made me itch and i wanna drink. haha and i just found some absolute vodka at home.. and also ribena as well as apple juice.. plus there's the world cup opening match ltr.. so yeah.. good stuff eh. haha. ogays for now i shall get some stuff done. so yeah. haha

2006-06-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

okays.. i have decided to support spain too!! cuz i realised that reyes will be playing for them! so yayyers! haha

anws i'm so glad jasmine got in for singapore idol! she shall be the girl contestant ill be supporting. the guy contestant will of course be jonathan leong. haha. anws i just heard rosline(i think).. e power 98 dj who hosts the show ard 9 plus claiming that jasmine is "a disgrace" and she "can't believe she got in". well obviously i disagree. haha. but i shan't say more. i'm sure jasmine will prove her wrong. haha.

k anws, been mugging in sch for the past two days with fujing.. and we laugh at almost every single thing. yeah. so anws, as you know the vj classroom has four doors at the four corners (yeah we studied in one o e classrooms).. so i realised that fujing has a bad habit of going out through one of the doors.. then leaving it slightly ajar so that she can get in ltr (since it locks fr e inside so cannot shut it totally).. then she forgot that she left tt door open and she'll come in through another door which is right on the opposite side of e room! haha yeah damn funny. but otherwise we were pretty into mugging! haha mugging w her motivates me! somehow. haha.

ogays. this is all that i wanna mention today. im pretty sure there's more. but i cant rmb all of it at the moment. so yeah. haha.

2006-06-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

how the hell did jamile get through and blake not! wah lau. sometimes voters need to open their eyes and see who can really dance. plus. i thought ryan's a really good dancer too. but once again, he got out instead of jamile. jamile has been in the bottom two since like forever. Isnt it time he got out? BUT, BUT i'm glad melody's in! she's hot. and i wanna date her. anws, i alr know who won.but i'm not gonna spoil it for pple watching it! haha.

ogays. i realised i havent blogged abt e singapore idol results (first 7 guys). i'm SO GLAD jonathan leong got in! yay!!! haha unfortunately he's not gonna get any votes from me for the shows to come. I'm broke. And being the practical person i am, i think all these voting's really crappy. waste money only. hah. so anw, the other person who got in was paul twohill.. who got an extreme protest from my mum for getting through.. haha cuz she can't stand his hair.. yeah THE HAIR. haha his image? he's identity? i dunno.. but i think THAT hair.. is only gonna make little teenage girls fall for him.. an "imagine" that he'll be thoroughly embarrassed of when he grows up. hah.. but okays.. i think he can sing pretty well.. at least better than the rest. so i think the key to "watching" his performance is to turn away from the telly, and just listen to the singing. hah. cuz i get into convulsions when i watch him perform.. especially when he attempts to flick his hair such that it "falls into place". haha i can't stop laughing while even talking about it now.

alrights.. anws, i shall go try a little bit of mugging. i've been at the extreme end of being unproductive. help. and there's only less than 3 weeks left! urgh somebody kill me.

can't wait to see my girls again tmr! =)))

2006-06-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

had my attachment yesterday which was pretty okay lah overall.. haha thought observation was a bit boring.. but i think the actual application looks really fun! so yeah.. more stress on me.. haha then before i even had time to think and take a deep breathe.. i was alr on my way to take the SATs.. yeah was at starhub centre.. and i was surprised to actually feel surprised to see a whole bunch of pple my age.. cuz somehow some part of my brains were malfunctioning and i kinda pictured myself sitting all alone in the examination hall. yeah so anw we were all thrown into sitting throught 10 sets of papers.. each approx 25 mins or so.. yeah then just do and do non stop.. in between the examiners also like to pause like damn long dunno for what.. so basically throughout the whole thing i was cold, starving, having extreme mental inconsistency as well as having the ultimate need to pee..wow. and it was damn tiring lah.. now i know why it's called SATs.. cuz i actually SAT there for a really long time.. these two days was kinda like hell to me though yesterday wasnt all so bad.. but i kinda had to stand for the whole day yesterday.. and i was also cold and hungry before lunch yesterday.. then today.. i had to sit for like.. 4 hours plus 5? for now i just have to wait for the SAT results which i am so not looking forward to and i also have to wait for the bloody As to be over.. okay.. that's long term.. haha ok i shall stop complaining..

2006-05-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

I ran 5K today! feels good man.. haha but i was kinda outta breath after the run.. yeah damn my stamina is dropping fast..

anw i just watched Singapore idol.. they really shuddin put it right after American Idol.. esp since it's just the finals last week.. yeah reflects on how lousy some of the contestants are.. in fact.. most of them.. yeah but hey after all the singing i've heard tonight i've decided to root for jonathan leong all the way. his singing has got substance.. and he sounds good lah basically. he kidna has a similar voice to chris from AMI.. yeah and i supported chris..and i thought paul something sherwood also not bad. except for the hair and the goth look. haha.. yepps.. so anws.. i blogged like twice today! look at how bored i am..lol

2006-05-31T12:03:00.000+08:00

I 've been dreaming of tights for the past few nights. and i met tights more than once yesterday. and we met each other everywhere else except at the commonplace, that is, school. haha how coincidental. tights and his all time fashion accessory also never failed to make me laugh. lol. yeah and i was with fujing for alomost the whole day yesterday. we were extremely ditzy and everything. and we couldn't stop laughing abt tights. okay so anw i was in sch yesterday in the morning. was first "chased" outta the classroom i occupied, and we couldn't find anywhere else so we had to resort to the concourse..which i thought was pretty condusive lah. except when some mini sized teacher with an enormous voice came by and talked to some students for like an hour plus. yeah. yeaps.. then qp joined us for lunch and after that. and the three of us were once again interrupted by our all time best friend. *ahem ahem*. her laughter was.. very contagious.. cuz it somehow made us laugh too thought we din share the same joke. hah.

yeah then had this interview for the excos thing in the afternoon.. and then we were off for our dinner treat at the indonesian rice table.. treat from our everdearest teacher in charge.. haha.. yeaps.. so anw the waiter was asking me if i want rice.. so i said yes lah then he scooped a huge amount of rice to put onto my plate.. of which about a third of it landed on the table instead of inside my plate. yeah.. so now i truely understand why it's called the RICE TABLE. muaha.

yupps walked ard with fujing abit aft that.. nth much happened except that we were laughing uncontrollably and we met tights. haha yah. that was my day yesterday.

anw i just wanna say that the feng you totally rocks. oh the wonders of the feng you.. hah.

2006-05-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

there's a party at Mos tonight. and mos msged me and i got two free invites. but i'm at home mugging. muaha.

ogays. right. i think my rheumatism is getting bad.. i wake up each day with my knees and some other joints hurting like shit. hah. im seriously getting old..

anw da vinci code is up like finally! i can't wait to watch it.. yeah.. haha though some pple said it wasnt good.. but yeah neutral stand till i watch it! haha

and i cant wait for the term to end. though it really means the start of hell.. like block tests and prelims and As and mugging non stop.. but yeah term end means hols means get to sleep more. haha and im damn contradictory. like i want all these to end asap (yeah i know it'll be damn fast).. but then again i want time to slow down cuz i feel totally unprepared! urgh help help help.

and anw..moving to American Idol.. i still havent gotten over the fact that chris got out. urgh. he should have won! and kat should get second. and i thought taylor should have gotten out quite some time ago. but by the looks of it i think he's gonna win. oh wells.. the winners dun always have it good also. look at ruben and clay. bo bice and carrie underwood. haha. but anw, singapore idol tmr night.. think it'll be good to destress and laugh a lil.. hah. and then there's so you think you can dance on mondays. damn i watch too much tv. haha.

ogays i hope there's more days off next week or sth! i need them. hope all e sports groups in finals win too! yeaps. haha yuppers.

*let freedom ring. the only thing that pulls us down is gravity*

2006-05-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

okay so i realised that this weekend's kinda like the last bit of time i have to relax. at least i know that the next two weeks will be hell busy for me. esp week 10. yes that's two weeks later. i have something on every single day. okay maybe except monday. picture this: dinner on tues night, attachment on wed and thurs, movie on friday?? (haha okay fine this is leisure that i wouldnt wanna miss! it's the last day of sch anw..), then wedding dinner on sat and comp stuff on sunday. wow. hell that's almost every day. i'm SO excited for wk 10 ( note the sarcasm). yeah then it'll be the start of the hols where the first wk will be spent mugging for SAT.. and the next 3 weeks for mid years. and then once school starts it'll be the exams and then the next few weeks of term 3 i'll prob be spending time wondering why i flunked mid years then before i know it it'll be prelims then the As. right. call me paranoid. but hell i think it's coming too soon.

plus i still need to get some stuff done right and figure out how to get leave and stuff plus get the attachment documents right and then i gotta finish up the testimonial shit which i have to submit in abt two weeks. yeap. so yeah im totally stress free! right.

alright enough on my too hectic life. haha. let's talk about bio! okay i'm kidding. haha anw i was in my room a few days ago and i was thoroughly terrorised by this 1.3 cm cockroach which flies (eeks my worse fear) so anw obviously it had to be gotten rid of. but there wasnt enough time to go grab the pesticide. so yeah i was looking for a mag or book to smack it. and viola i found the scholarship guide. haha hey it comes in handy sometimes yeah. totally useful for cockroaches. yeah much more useful than its original purpose. lol.

and this brings me to my next topic. (though it's a bit no link)..i need to know if our teeth will loosen if we consume ultra cold stuff or drinks.. cuz that was what i did and my teeth feels loose now! at least when i do excercise and stuff it feels like it's falling out.. haha..

okays and im really tempted to watch x-men 3. but i havent watched x-men 2 yet. yes i know im really fast. haha so im reaching out to all kinda souls out there who has the dvd.. please? maybe? can i? haha. yeaps. okays enuf crap. i feel my ah sohness creeping back. and that's wrong. but hey i need to vent before i break down man. haha.

damn i'm outta feng you.

2006-05-12T16:56:00.000+08:00

the person who did this to my tag board is either very bored or is such a loser he or she has to resort to this to scream for attention. it's sick. and im disgusted.

i was bored so i koped this from eunice:

GIRLS FILL OUT THE TOPGUYS FILL OUT THE BOTTOM
POST IT UP SO WE SEE WHAT'S UPREPOST WITH THE TITLE "WHAT TURNS ME ON/OFF"
About guys, Turned ON, OFF or DC (Don't care):
Is taller than you: on
Is shorter than you: off
Wears braces: dc
Wears a grill: dc
Dresses Preppy: on
Dresses Ghetto: off
Dresses Gothic: on
Has blue eyes: on
Has green eyes: on
Has hazel eyes: on
Brown eyes: on
Drinks alcohol: dc (as long as he doesn't drink more than me. lol)
Wears glasses: dc
Smokes: off ( i wouldn't mind social smokers though)
Plays sports: ON
Smiles a lot: on!
Calls you just to say Hi: off! (irritating! unless if it's someone i really really really like)
Compliments you: on
Good dancer: on
Wears jewelry: on
Smiles when you walk in the room: on
Has brown hair: on
Has Black hair: on
Has blonde hair: on
Has red hair: on
Makeup: off
Can make you laugh at any given moment: on
Loyal: on
Laid back: off ( boring guys are unhealthy for girls)
Plays guitar: on
Plays drums: on
Sing: dc
he's buff (muscles): on (i have a weakness for well defined but not over defined abs..)
He can draw: dc
Easily jealous: off!
Doesn't eat meat: off
is bi: off
has a tattoo: dc
has a lip ring: off
has tongue ring: off (tongue rings get in the way.. lol)

AbOut girls: Turned ON, OFF or DC (don'tcare)
dresses like a grandma:
plays musical instrument:
is shorter than you:
same height as you:
is taller than you:
has chapped lips:
has green eyes:
has blue eyes:
has brown eyes:
has long hair:
has med. hair:
has short hair:
drinks alcohol:
smokes cigs:
smokes weed:
wears glasses:
has blonde hair:
has brown hair:
has black hair:
has red hair:
works out:
smiles:
calls you just to say hi:
creative:
compliments you:
shaves her legs:
wears jewelry:
has bigger feet than you:
has smaller feet than you:
smiles when you walk into the room:
belly piercings:
virgin:
laid back:d
oesn't party:
likes to party:
wants to party:
laughs a lot:
giggles:
snorts:
pierced ears:
pierced anything else:
tattoos:
honest and open:
goes to church:

i was wondering whether i should fill in the girl's part.. muaha..

2006-05-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

right so these few days were all about politics and politics non stop. and yeah the results are out.. and i'm really amazed at the speed the newspapers print stuff.. like PM lee just made a speech at 2 am this morning after all the results were announced and they actually managed to print out everything and send the paper to every household! right kudos to them.. haha so basically i think being a journalist is pretty tough.. despite their exciting worklife and stuff.. i dun think i can take it.

so anw i was out having a bbq with s25ers! yay meeting up is always good. haha and since we're all too young to vote we all chose to spend the public holiday more wisely.. yeah but it's kinda sad tho to know that how everyone's moving on pretty soon.. like so many people's going overseas to study.. everyone's going to be like all around the globe.. yeap and then as we move on we kinda change our lifestyle to adapt to the new environment we're brought into. or more like.. the environment we brought ourselves into. much is lost after each stage. like when we move on from one school to the next, we kinda change our lifestyles, our attitudes and everything else at least a little bit. yeah and even though people always claim that they'll never change, you never really know if they will do you? in fact you won't even know if you yourself will change.

and so we all know that nothing can last forever. every single moment, everyone is going to pass you by without you even noticing it. and so we're all pretty much alone. but then again to know that everything will past by would mean that the unpleasant stuff would go by too. so i guess life is all about how you control it. everyone is entitled to choosing how they want to live their life. of course we cannot choose the family we're born into, or how we're going to be brought up. but above all of these, it really is a choice of our own. nothing is certain. it's all our choice really. nothing comes easy i believe. some people get lucky that i believe too. but besides all those things, everything else is really how we choose to live our life. how we choose to make the best out of it.

so what i'm trying to say is, every moment we spend cannot actually be defined as whether we've wasted it or not. it's relative. say now i'm a student. i am supposed to be studying so that i'll get results. but if i lie around doing nothing. you cannot exactly classify it as me being lazy. because it is after all my choice. how i choose to do things is a choice i've made which will decide the path with which i'm going to in the future. and if i mug non stop all day, it is also a choice i've made. it might make me successful if i want to. it might not. so basically, the important thing is to enjoy the choice you made, and the thing you've chosen to do every single moment.

yeah okay i think i've just crapped a lot..haha right gotta go bathe.. then i'm going to socialise with my uber cute niece. yeap i miss her so much! havent seen her in a week.=)

2006-05-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

i have so much to blog about and so much to rant i don't know where to start.

2006-04-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

i am sick. damn. i sneeze like a zillion times per hour it sucks.. and my throat blardy hurts.. i think i had too much pepper last night.. haha from pepper plate.. yes meetup with my darlings! esta, anu, xinhui, mandy, odddz, anna and yafen! yays.. yeah and it was SO GREAT meeting up! i miss them so much lah.. even esta.. tho i saw her like 3 times before in e week alr.. lol.. yeah and we took neoprints! i havent took those in AGES.. haha and everyone grew prettier! yepps.. haha so anws, we took a few photos which im lazy to upload here.. u all can view it on my friendster.. yepps.. and my girls and cope e photos if u all wanna! haha..

yup and e week before i met up with my fav girls too! ruo, yiwen, weix, xun and ethel! love those girls! haha yups eating e ice cream waffle at marche left me craving for more for e whole of the week.. yepps..haha e photos are up on my friendster too.. i realised tt i wore e same stuff for both outings.. look at how limited my wadrobe is.. lol.. okays..

so anws the freaking week just passed.. like nothing and i was damn stressed for a few days in e past week and i dunno why.. i wasnt pmsing or anything.. was just freaking pissed off with everything and i din have e mood to do anything at all..yeah and there's a crappy bio test next week and all i could do was stone at the notes. and i thought blasting music would help relax me a lil.. as it always did.. but i only got irritated with e music.. which really sucked.. bleahs but okays.. am at the i- think-im-alright stage now.. so yeah.. haha meeting up with girls i miss was definately therapheutic.. haha

right so anws, i am so in love with e song wanna ride by bone thugs now.. it's like fantastically awesome! and then e whole take the lead soundtrack has so many other damn nice songs too! hiphop rocks.. yea.. ogays.. the last few days was pretty interesting i must say.. yups.. ogays..i shall post this for now.. till i update again like eons later..

2006-03-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

alright.. another boring week just flew by. okay not so boring but still quite boring. right.

so anws i reached school only aat 9 plus today.. then was walking in when i noticed sth quite funny. yeah u know e new yellow grey and red stand which says "victoria junior college" right at the main gate?? haha it looks like the ones at shell petrol station right.. so anw, someone actually pasted this laminated board saying "60% off petrol".. like yeah.. damn hilarious..haha oh then seet caught me then he gave me a "i know ur late" smile and said "good morning" to me in a damn sarcastic way..but that's all lah he din say much or wad..

yup so anws, today was supp to be the pre april fools day thing.. since tmr's a saturday.. but i was late for sch so i din get any of it.. but anw, this was what i heard happened. everyone came to school and a lot of things were out of place. like the chairs were on the canteen tables and stuff.. yeah quite lame lah..

then today's also vs's sports day.. so there were quite a lot of little boys ard.. yeah and it's actually music fest finals tonight! haha okays..

right im gonna post this first till i have more things to talk about.

2006-03-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

my blog needs serious updating..right so anws.. my life's really damn boring nth much to talk about.. except for e fact that i got a papercut this morning.. see it shows that im hardworking and im touching paper..lol

but anws, im kinda nostalgic now.. lol after talking abit to shawn about the good old days.. i miss so much from yr one part one..(yeah i mean last last year.. haha year one part two was last year)..it suddenly kinda hit me hard that, we're never gonna get those days back again.. and those were the days i really really enjoyed.. with 04s25-ers that is.. but right now everyone's moved on.. when i say moved on i mean two things.. one we've all grown much more and our attitudes and maturity is all different even tho it's only been a short one year plus. we've all gone throught different things and we've all changed in a way. the second thing is, we're all so busy in our different paths in our lives, we hardly have the time for a proper meetup. and let's face the truth, even when we do meetup, our hangouts will never be the same as that of the past. like think sentosa.. if we do go back there as a class, will we still enjoy it the same way we did last time? i dunno.. but i do miss us floating ard, getting burnt under e sun and doing flips into the sea from the floating bridge.. hahah oh and our mass bath! lol everyone was staring at us.. haha

then i rmb our starbucks sessions talking crap and throwing lots o money drinking coffee( which by right is dehydrating and calcium depleting but then again, a recent study from japan shows that those who take one or two cups of coffee a day cut their risk of liver cancer by half!).. us watching movies.. the sleepovers, even lessons in school were memorable.. haha all e kan lessons.. and us playing ard and having picnic sessions at the lt during lectures.. and anws, i actually miss planting towgay for srs! or at least, i miss going into the clean room cuz u actually have to go through the blowing cubical first which was damn cooling.. haha n i miss having pple to talk to everywhere u go around sch.. plus i havent really heard pple calling me ah soh for quite long.. i actually miss being called that.. haha and i wanna pick up footballs with my hands again! lol that is if we ever get to play again tgt.. with my utterly lousy skills..haha..

yeah then came promos.. where we had mugging sessions almost everywhere, marine parade lib, the airport and school classrooms.. yeah i still rmb me esther yafen and shawn, we mugged till like e evening then we all got so bored we started singing out so loud the whole strech of classrooms could hear us..haha and some of us like to walk on da tables.. like outta e blue we'll just start walking on them.. haha random..

right so those were the memories.. there's so much more and every bit is worth remembering.. altho only right now has it really set in that, 'those were the times and time has flown byso incredibly fast, there's no way you can bring them back and we've only got the memories to hold on to'.. but while i know we've all moved on, i just wanna say to all 04s25-ers, thanks for giving all those memories which i could say are the few best times ive had in my life.. they mean alot to me.. yup.. damn im so sentimental.. (right this is so anticlimax.. haha)

2006-03-20T08:57:00.000+08:00

Right.. so i couldn't use e comp for e entire week of hols.. how sad is that.. haha no comp to use.. comp was sent for reformatting.. oh wells.. but anws.. e past week has been pretty okay..

anw i was getting onto the train the other day.. from bishan station.. then the train was extremely crowded think cuz it was e lunch hour.. then this ah beng with really lousy english came squeezing in alongside everyone else.. then out of the blue he shouted " eh escue me, prease move in hor.. other peopre wanna come into the train one hor." so everyone shifted in a little.. then shortly after, he took a phone call and moved into e centre of the train. yeah it was damn hilarious seeing him cuz he was talking so loudly in hokkien, and his sentences were so vulgar u can see all the ah mahs and ah peks glaring at him.. yeah then ltr he hung up and moved to e side of the train back to where he came from, and stood right in front (in the middle) of the train door.. so i thought he was getting out at the next station.. but he didn't all the way till dhoby gaut.. so people had to squeeze pass him to get in and outta e train at every stop. yup.. talk about a selfish ah beng with so much "character", he contradicts himself..

yeah then anws the following week was just stoning at home and going out.. had class bbq.. went cycling and blading with ruo and jpoh. oh and i watched brokeback mountain.. it's kinda boring really.. but then again im not sophisticated enough to appreciate the art involved.. even though the intimate moments took me awhile to get used to.. yeah but anws jake gyllenhal's really hot! yeah i mean sizzling hot even thought them making out was pretty much a turn off.. but yeah im open.. haah

right so the rest of the week i met up with my fav sa girls and s25 pple.. yeah hur i think it's gonna be a long long time before we meet again.. how sad is that.. so anws.. right now sch's started.. i walked in to sch today and the first thing that came to my mind was "i hate sch mans".. what a way to start e first day of sch.. oh wells.. i just have to get by lah.. yepyep..

2006-03-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

As neccessary.
You scored 25% Cold and 71% Level-Headed!

If threatned, you will respond with equivalent force, and most likely have the nerves to carry you through the act.

okay common tests has been over for abt 3 days.. i wanted to update a few days ago! but e comp hanged and my half written post disappeared (pathetic me as usual). yeah so anws, im back to try to update. let's just hope that this post wun disappear huh.. right so people have gotten back their As results.. was so good seeing everyone again.. but it's like e last time seeing everyone tgt as everyone.. yeah u know what i mean. k so we were supp to have our chem common test paper e next day aft the release of results (thursday).. then a msg was passed ard saying that e test was postponed to friday.. but thurs we still have to go to sch (prob so they can declare full day off and we can waste our time waking up so early in e morn and travelling all e way to sch.. think of those who dun live near e east!).. right so anw.. later after that, another msg was passed ard saying that it's not confirmed whether e test is postponed.. meaning that we're not even sure if we're having e test on which day.. then till e next morning, everyone was still speculating whether we were having e test or not.. then only till assembly, then it was confirmed that e test was still on that day (thursday). yeah like so we knew that we were having e test only 15 mins before e test started. e sch system's pretty screwed huh. right so anws, we're still getting out full day off on monday (for yr 2s that is..) despite most of us having to go back for O2 cca walkabout.. how screwed. right i better post this cuz i cant think o anything else to write for e moment. before this disappears.

2006-03-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

okay common tests has been over for abt 3 days.. i wanted to update a few days ago! but e comp hanged and my half written post disappeared (pathetic me as usual). yeah so anws, im back to try to update. let's just hope that this post wun disappear huh..

right so people have gotten back their As results.. was so good seeing everyone again.. but it's like e last time seeing everyone tgt as everyone.. yeah u know what i mean. k so we were supp to have our chem common test paper e next day aft the release of results (thursday).. then a msg was passed ard saying that e test was postponed to friday.. but thurs we still have to go to sch (prob so they can declare full day off and we can waste our time waking up so early in e morn and travelling all e way to sch.. think of those who dun live near e east!).. right so anw.. later after that, another msg was passed ard saying that it's not confirmed whether e test is postponed.. meaning that we're not even sure if we're having e test on which day.. then till e next morning, everyone was still speculating whether we were having e test or not.. then only till assembly, then it was confirmed that e test was still on that day (thursday). yeah like so we knew that we were having e test only 15 mins before e test started. e sch system's pretty screwed huh.

right so anws, we're still getting out full day off on monday (for yr 2s that is..) despite most of us having to go back for O2 cca walkabout.. how screwed. right i better post this cuz i cant think o anything else to write for e moment. before this disappears..

2006-02-15T11:49:00.000+08:00

hey yr 3s.. i've gotten e yr book alr.. lol jealous jealous? haha u all will get urs SOON..hhahaha

2006-02-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

okays.. this is what i heard about A LEVEL results.. hahas.. the principal mentioned yesterday morning that rumours say that e results will be out in wk 9.. not next week or what.. oh n this is wk 6.. so yeah.. still got a bit o time to breathe and relax abit.. hahs.. anws common tests are up really soon.. like on e week where u all are (rumoured) to get back e A level resuts.. and the next spa's up even sooner.. oh man im so screwed.. urgh.. help help help..

2006-02-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed cuz this is my second time typing this.. haha but anws.. since im kinda sick i shant stress myself furthur by being pissed.. yeaps.. e post cny sickness.. heatiness, fever, headache, flu, cough, sorethroat.. basically everything i bao ka liao lah..haha yea so anws got mc for yesterday..

hmm okies had jts on wed.. after cross country in e morning.. n cross country was basically quite crappy.. cuz i started off at e back o e crowd.. then half e time i was walking cuz it was too congested to run. then at e end o it i felt like i had more than enough energy to go for another run..haha. but it was kinda amusing lah.. cuz at e start when e horn sounded, e girls in front actually screamed.. dunno for wad lah but it was hilarious..haha yeah then ltr went for a short session of kboxing before jts. yeaps sang quite alot.. okies i was screaming and going off tune half e time.. yes typical me.. haha and sth embarrasing happened(which i shant post up here..haha it's for me to know and for u to find out..lol).. then went for jts at fish n co e glasshouse! haha yes it's e place for e senior senior's jts..yeaps.. maybe two years down e road e junior junior class will have jts agn there.. haha but anws.. im sure most o u know that i hate fish..haha but e meal was quite enjoyable lah.. cuz we had e whole o e upstairs to ourselves then we just took photos non stop and stuff.. so yeah was kinda fun..

Anws cny was kinda okay also lah.. e usual loh it's kinda similar every year..and it's just pigging out non stop every meal every day.. yeah and with that i just realised that week 5 just kinda like flew past.. yes time flying by and e clock's ticking.. O level results' gonna be out nxt wk.. Alevels.. hmm..??? (im so gonna get thrown for reminding everyone bout this..haha).. but anws.. yess i have common tests coming up.. hais.. this yr's all about tests exams and muging non stop huh.. but since it's a phase everyone has to get thru with.. so i guess i just have to make e best out of it! haha..

in e meantime.. im deprived of party life.. yeaps im missing one right now.. it's okay.. those who went can tell me bout it!(no sarcasm here!) hahas.. yups for now.. i shall go sleep early and get rid o those flu bugs..

2006-01-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

okies.. cny's coming.. not really that excited or what.. somehow it's getting quite sian.. hahas but oh wells.. nvm it's good cuz i can gorge and get money for gorging.. hahhah..

anws okay i think im outta my pmsing state alr.. more or less.. thanks for all who cared..=) but anws.. tho sch's really boring.. i still get cheap thrills now and then..yeaps i saw my eyecandy today! hahah he's damn good looking.. it's like.. he got such sharp features alr.. (like josh holloway is so hot).. ogay i know i shuddin be paedophilic.. haha but i gotta spice up life a bit right.. haha.. and anws im not doing anything.. hahas.

and anws.. i realised that i just had my last sch cny celebrations in my life today.. kinda cuz uni wun have wad.. then i slowly realised that everything's e last time.. like last cross ctry, last sports day.. blah blah and tho im getting sick o most o it.. i know it's e last and i just gotta go for it right.. hahas oh and im playing e angel mortal game for e third time alr.. lol.. and cny celebrations today were ogay lah.. chris was so pro with e drums! hahas and mark made a total fool out o himself.. im so disgusted i dun wanna elaborate..

ogay. oh yeah to all whuse graduated.. hahas e sch's coming out with this new slacking room.. sth like sa's.. got soccer table, xbox, games and stuff lah.. hahas.. yeah quite cool.. so rmb to come back to check it out! yups plus e treehouses are officially e hangouts for yr ones.. they're like hogging it half e time.. not that i mind lah.. lol yea okies i shall stop here for today.. shall update again soon! hahas..

2006-01-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

another very boring week just flew past again.. and i have plenty more of such weeks to spend... anws.. i'm so glad that there are still pretty friendly pple ard in places.. it's like.. in sch pple i dunno just smiles and then we become friends.. or sometimes someone u see at e bus stop just happens to meet ur eye and he or she smiles.. it kinda brightens ur day yeah.. esp since im pmsing alot nowadays with almost everything.. im like eating so much.. and i think they say that u eat more when ur sad.. which i think is v true.. hahas

hahas but anws.. im so glad pple still care.. im fine.. really.. haha oh btw i've got news on when e As results might be out.. so for those who prefer to escape from reality.. dun read on.. hahah anws.. i heard that Os results will be out in week 6.. so prob As results will be out in week 7?.. i think lah not confirm.. yeah right now it's e weekend of week 3 alr.. so u all can count lah.. yeah okies i feel evil.. haha okies..

hmm okokies.. cny goodies are calling out to me to go eat them.. lol

2006-01-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

everything's so unreal. life was there for a moment. and then it left the very next second. maybe i'm so confused i don't understand anything at all. but right now i just want life to come back to me. thanks for opening up the past. thanks for taking away that bit of faith left. everything else was probably just a dream. someday the machine that pumps blood will probably turn all icy and cold. then she'll achieve the status she never wants to get. release me.

Scars
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
and I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
and I tried to grab your hand
and I left my heart open
but you didn't understand
but you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

need i say more?

2005-12-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

okay i know i've been absent from my blog for a long time. but each time i wanna blog, ill have so many stuff in my head to write about i'll just get sian and give up. but okay since abz spent so much effort in designing my blogskin.. i shall do justice to it by putting up a post. haha..

anws my life's pretty eventful. a bit too eventful at certain points i must say. and i'm sure some of you know what i'm talking about. but at this certain point i've come to realise that alot of things are superficial in the sense that, i don't understand why so many things are happening. so they say all things happen for a reason. why don't i see any reasons in anything. I'm not a realistic person. so when i say i cant see reasons, i don't mean reasons laid out one by one for me to see. u know what i mean.

then i come to question why my questions in life aren't answered. and then sometimes you realise that they'll never be answered. and then you find yourself aimless in what you're doing. then you come to a point where you realise that you're more alone than you realise you are in this world. everyone stands alone in their own life. the people you trust could possibly be the very first to betray you. then when you turn to some others, you realise that they too lead their own lives and the last thing they want is to be bothered by with your own problems.

so anws, the next thing is, have you ever wondered how certain things seems to be so closely connected? like, how so many people know each other, a certain thing can be blown up so huge it becomes totally complicated? but oh wells. i think i'm complaining too much. and perhaps i question too much. let's just get back into our little comfy zone and stop asking so many questions.

but anw, despite all my complains, something good is happening. and i'm quite happy about it. =)

2005-12-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

i think about the things people have done, and i wonder.
i think about the things i've done, and i wonder too.
maybe fate really plays
maybe this is all but a game

there are tons of things which i wished i haven't done
just like the many things i wished i haven't said
then perhaps this is all that should have been done
for otherwise this wouldn't be so

so much confusion
so many uncertainties
dunno what's right or wrong
perhaps we should all start from scratch again

2005-12-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

hahahs does everyone see this damn nice new blogskin! hahas it's all thanks to e wonderful effort of ABBY CHAN BABA! yeah i love love love this skin! it's so purple!..hahaha thanks baba! i can never do sth like this mans.. since im an almost-computer-illiterate person..haha anws i tried uploading photos e other day.. and when ive alr did e page for almost e whole nite.. e comp had to hang.. i almost died pulling out my hair..(erm ok doesnt make sense..lol).. so anws.. since im in a pretty good mood today.. i shall upload SOME o e photos!

2005-12-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

i know i havent updated in a lonnnngg time.. but i have pictures to upload (which i havent) n to put along with whatever i have to put in e entry.. so this entry is to let pple(yes esther.. lol) know that ill be uploading e stuff really soon.. and then ill write e long emo entry about everything worth remebering. yeps.. u know what im talking about.. hahas.. so in e meantime.. smile! =)

2005-11-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

finally watched potter today! haha it was not bad lah. the effects and stuff. just that they left out quite some stuff from the book.. but without those stuff e movie was alr about.. 2 and e half hours or so? haha anws it's really darker than e earlier movies.. and it's quite hilarious at some parts of the show.. oooodz and i were laughing our heads off (or maybe it's just cuz we were damn high..lol) but anws.... i just have to announce that..

I have a new infatuation!!! hahas im back to e immature i'm-still-gushing stage.. not like im v mature la.. but anws.. he's non other than Robert pattinson aka Cedric Diggory!! lol and he's mine.. so dun anyone dare steal him away.. im warning everyone! (lol okies this is spastic)..

Ain't he gorgeous??

all about killing time

2005-11-18T01:43:00.000+08:00

okies so im not a person who stays pissed for long. so much so that i think e person im pissed with doesnt even know i was pissed with him or her. and im back to talking to that person.

another thing is.. pple r finishing their As gradually over e next week or more.. so that means im getting into e celebration mood! tho it's not my exams.. but there's alr a series of plans lined up.. which means alot less boredom.. and spending lotsa money.. shite.. i havent really filled up e huge hole in my pocket burnt fr a few weeks ago.. lol or rather.. from e day i started spending which was since i dunno when? haha..

anws why must it be e monsoon season now.. i really really really need to get some sun.
I'M SO WHITE. it's getting really gross.. and sentosa's yearning for my presence.. LOL.. pls can we go pls? sometime?

OH btw.. i finally learnt how to twirl my pen.. in e quite difficult way.. after trying for more than a yr.. since e pw days where we were supp to be discussing stuff.. then daryl will start e pen twirling thing.. hahas.. but anws..e point is.. i sudd discovered a method yesterday.. yeah.. n i managed it in one day lah.. haha but im not like say expert at it.. oh and i cannot look at my hand when i do it.. otherwise cannot do properly..( i think cuz my hand's too stressed when i look at it.. lol).. see that's what i do when im bored..hahas..

kkies time to do sth else now.. haha

2005-11-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

There is a limit to my patience. I am nice to people whom i think deserves it. And I'll go all out to help that person if i think he or she needs it. But once you start taking advantage of the situation and start thinking that I'll be there at your beck and call, then I'm sorry, you've crossed the line and my tolerance can only go as far.

Funny how two different people chose to cross that line on the same day. One pushing that last bit of responsibility and stacking it on another person's pile. But at this point i'm still willing to take it. While being pushed to the point of being over stressed, I will fight on.

The other person though has really touched a raw nerve. All I ask for is a little bit more initiative to remember what is vital for the deadline. And after helping you with everything, I just need a little more respect. I don't wanna elaborate. Enough said.

These few weeks has really taught me much about the word "alone". I'm not demanding for attention. All I want is a person to talk to. But then again, what are my issues as compared to anyone else's?

*Stop forcing me to be the megabitch I'm trying not to be*

2005-11-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

i ran alot for yesterday and today! yay! budden.. im like dying and my legs are aching like shit.. damn.. my fitness has dropped SO MUCH. omg im really becoming damn fat and unhealthy. but anws.. i din wanna waste time.. so chose to run when e sun was out and shining.. so that i could tan at e same time.. in chinese we call it.. yi(4)ju(3)liang(3)de(2). if u look at another perspective of it.. it's called shuting being crazy and trying to get heatstroke.

i got scolded slightly today. but someone else made me happy yesterday. and e happiness overlaps the unhappiness.. so im still happy. yay.. plus plus.. ive got a box of milk duds( eunice's recommendation) waiting to melt in my mouth! ( so much for the run huh lol)

oh and and.. ive had quite alot o retail therapy.. a nice new skirt.. a few tops.. and new shoes.. and ive searched everywhere for jay's november chopin(e original package one) and it's all out of stock! so yeah that's gonna be e next thing i get.. once ive found it.. in e meantime.. my pocket's got a HUGE hole in it.. im friggin broke.. n i think i need to stop spending otherwise i wun have any money left when e yr twos finishes As.. then they'll be spending and ill be watching them spend.

so anws.. e upcoming movies i HAVE TO watch r.. harry potter and e goblet of fire, the chronicles of narnia, pride and prejudice, elizabeth town, pirates of the carribbean 2(next july), okies i cant think of anymore at the moment.. but yeah.. i will watch all of these.. haha... yupps..

2005-11-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

Starvation - these kids need our help.

ht tp://news.scotsman.com/topics.cfm

Wed 3 Aug 2005
Firdaoussi Saadou is treated for severe malnutrition at a hospital in Maradi. The 10 month old boy weighs only 3.7 kilograms. Many more like him are suffering.Picture: EPA

http://www.irw.org/wherewework/africa/

Ethiopian girl holding fruit picked from the desert to eat during the drought

http://www.missionariesofafrica.org/challenges/food1.html

2005-10-28T20:29:00.000+08:00

okies.. so i had four job interview yesterday.. n i din turn up for a single one.. lol.. i freaked out.. n i realised that my hols time is too uncertain to take up jobs.. so i shant.. hahas.. for now that is.. n i think that i MIGHT be going overseas.. yay! hahas.. n i MIGHT be backpacking.. but it's all not confirmed.. hahas..

anws.. i just have to annouunce that im a free soul and i am no longer bothered by everything that has happened or is happening! yay! I'm free.. n it's like paradise. im loving it totally. even if it was just for awhile.. it's still good. don't say that im running away from reality. i'll free myself for eternity. even if im not given a chance to be freed.

u know sometimes it's good to abandon( or abundant.. as fann wong pronounces it..) all thoughts.. n free urself for a moment. don't think too far. don't look too deep into things. allow yourself to breathe in and just enjoy the moment. live with each moment as it passes. don't worry about anythingat all. just bear in mind that whatever comes ur way isn't an obstacle.. but an aid in life that makes you stronger at the end of the day. to me, what is meant is to be is meant to be. if i have to die this very minute, then so be it.

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun *josh groban. remember.*

2005-10-23T15:24:00.000+08:00

you know i've been thinking quite abit since im so bored these days.

and then i was asking myself.
why must people be punished when they break rules. what are rules? why then r pple who break those rules be seen as a bad person. who made up these rules. who said rules are always right. how do you even define right or wrong.
then i moved on to the bigger picture and asked what life is all about. what is the purpose of life. (No i'm not in the "i want to kill myself cuz life has no purpose" mood.) what's up with our existence. what's up with all the emotions. why people always get themselves so involved in things they don't really have to be bothered with. or maybe why some people just aren't bothered enough with these things.

fate/freewill.. how r these things even thought up of. love/hate... the complexity in life. work.. education.. whether ur rich or poor.. if u put all these tgt and look at the big picture.. everyone's just in this game. how and why some people have to gamble so hard they lose their way in the game of life.. i dunno.. or is failure even failure? why is failure defined as such? people are delivered into this world.. then after awhile we leave. so what's the purpose of it all? what's going on before that and after that?

oh wells. maybe i think too much. maybe it's time to be brought back to earth and pretend that everything exists for a known purpose. in other words.. run away from things. truths.. lies.. everything..

2005-10-22T15:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTH DAY TO ESTHER AND ANU!!!! my lovely darlings.. i love ya both loads and loads and loads.. smile babes!

2005-10-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

I'm liberated.

anws someone is scaring the shit out of me. can somebody please tell that person to stop. please??

oh colours award presentation today was so fun. so many pple to spot. ruo and abz.. sry for having to tolerate my "highness".. it was too exciting. n you know why. lol..

hmm too much things known in a day. too little time to digest. but it's ok. distractions aplenty. im happy with the way my day turned out. though i fumbled a bit. but it's ok. that's what makes life exciting. but lugging a huge bag of cloth today was not fun.

okies anybody got any idea what my entry's talking about at all? no huh.. im just as clueless about life.

2005-10-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

i am DYING of boredom. HELP! next week.. yr ones got pw. yr twos got As. i have NO ONE to go out with. n my hols have started.. howhow?? im sorry to say this.. but i really prefer mugging for exams than having to rot with no one at all.. urgh.. n i have sho much to say about sho many things.. but then ill be too bored to type. n right now.. i think everyone's too busy to bother reading.. sho oh wells.. i shall just put up e song of e moment.. no particular meaning tho. i just think it's a really beautiful song.

What hurts the most (Bellefire)
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere
I goBut I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when
I see your old friends and I'm alone

Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed
Dealing with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade
Give away
All the words that I say
Through my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do
Is what I was trying to do
Oh wow oh wow

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in youI
s what I was trying to do
Is what I was trying to do
Yeah...And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

2005-10-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

Hero
I am so high, I can hear heaven
I am so high, I can hear heaven
Oh, but heaven, no heaven, don't hear me

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away

Someone told me, love will not save us
But how can that be?
Look what love gave us
A world full of killing
And blood spilling
That world never came

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away

Now that the world isn't ending
It's love that I'm sending to you
It isn't the love of a hero
And that's why I fear it won't do

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away
And they're watching us
They're watching us
As we all fly away
And they're watching us
They're watching us
As we all fly away
They're watching us
They're watching us
As we all fly away

2005-10-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

hahas ive been sho slack for e past few days!! i snacked on fried mars bars for three days in a row.. gosh.. im turning into a greedy fat pig.. not that im not one already.. hahas.. but heys.. ive been going out non stop.. which is quite shiok.. and ive started reading jin yong kies.. to upgrade my chinese.. okies.. not that it's not good enuf already( muahahaha okies that's a lie..).. ok but my jin yong is just e comics lah.. but hey it's getting me hooked!

anws met up with vene, stella and yuen mei today.. n gosh i really really do miss sa mans.. first three months was like.. really all play n no mugging for us. (ok.. i know i played too hard for the rest o e yr too..hahas).. but anws.. we were usually looking forward to e end of tutorials.. and every single lecture was like a picnic session for us.. i miss sa SO MUCH.

anws.. to pple whu wanna cope my tuition kids..(hahas jk).. i havent talked to e woman for quite long.. sho i dunno if she still wants me to give her kids tuition.. or wad.. so yeah.. see how lah.. hahas..

okokies.. i shall go and continue with my very intellectual reading.. hahahah..

2005-10-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm BACK in action!!! like finally after abstaining from coming online for like.. two weeks... and abstaining from alot o things.. now there's alot o things i wanna do.. like alot alot alot alot alot of things.. which i know by e end of e hols i still wun get them done.. but i shall just do wad i feel like doing at e moment.. anws watched fourty year old virgin today. it was damn hilarious. hahas.. n since it was m18, i was e only one in there whu was legal.. n there was a whole bunch of other vj yr ones that were obviously not legal. muahaha..

anws, i need advice. okies there's this mum of three who wants me to tuition all her kids. pri1, pri3 and pri5. i want e cash. n i got time this hols. but im afraid that ill be too busy to manage them after e hols. like next yr As and all. so i was thinking ill just take one of them. but then agn it's still a responsibility. n i really dunno wad e pri sch syllabus is like now. then still must go find assesment books for e kid. yeah.. so i dunno if i should take e thing up at all. yups. anyone got any advice?

anws.. stoned with ash, eunice and chris today.. we crapped damn alot lah!! cuddin like.. stop laughing.. hahahas.. i havent laughed so hard in a really long time.. i ended up crying.. okies.. more like i laughed till i cried.. hahas yeah. but it was good. really good. eh shit.. i just realised that i just missed friends on cable.. urgh.. nvm.. im in a good mood today. really good mood. so it's ok. im like.. floating..

but im also sadden. time flies. im seeing e yr twos lesser and lesser now. i miss u guys alot.. really.. urgh. damn im trying not think so much.. bleahs..

2005-09-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

i love the s25 girls. and guys. muaha. abz and oooodz dun get jealous! ur both included. hahas. btw, promos r coming. n im dying. sheesh. i wanna concentrate i wanna concentrate just wanna concentrate. and block out everything else. but i can't. nvm. we are happy pple. let's just continue lying to ourselves.

2005-09-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

First up.. just wanna say HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to susan and jiahui!! (and lee kuanyew) hahas.. yepps.. we're all finally 18!!

anws met up with jiahui today.. was good seeing u today girl! hahas.. we were taking photos everywhere.. haha.. yeah n i met alot o pple in town today! even tho we only hung ard cine, taka and wisma.. met pohser 3 times!! hahas.. then saw bryan, saw eileen, valerie, gillian.. erm cant rmb alr.. hahas.. yeah but anws we had a really good talk! catched up alot.. yupps.. okies that's abt all for today.. n i got sho many vouchers and discount cards.. i cant wait to shop after promos!! anybody care to join me? it wun take too much time! hahas.. oh wells.. kkies im bored.. n i need to mug harder.. hahas..

2005-09-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

i thought the internet does not just revolve around just our fellow country men. ok i know that one should show respect for another's beliefs. but if they wanna talk about it. or make a joke abt it. so?? ok i admit i havent read e entries n i dunno how bad e joke is. but then.. to face such heavy charges? whatever happened to freedom of speech? it doesnt really exist here does it.

2005-09-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

all that u've done. i'm not amused. not at all. i've tried so hard to not bother. to not get involved. and u had to make me argue with u. r u trying to make me hate you too? i don't want to. i wanna know u as the one whu would always listen and understand. n i wanna know u just as the person who carried me in ur arms from the day i was born all ready to protect me.

i wanna shut out everything else that u've done. everything that u've done to hurt the people i love. everything u've done to make things so different. but i can't. and u seem totally foreign now. i dun understand the things u do anymore. but im still trying to believe that ur not that bad. im still clinging on to that little bit of faith i have in u. but it's slipping away. n i don't know what to do. i cried in ur arms the day i was born. exactly 18 years from that day, u made me cry.

2005-09-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

watched sin city two nights ago.. i think it's so damn cool.. e graphics i mean.. and e colour and stuff.. yeah but watching it in a room full of like.. 10 pple wasnt too cool.. esp for certain scenes.. but hey it was pretty hilarious lah.. oh n im having a not so hot but still good subway cookie now while typing this.. yeah it's good.. but shit im snacking so much nowadays i can feel myself turning into an oversized pig! urgh! actually.. i alr am almost there.. hahah... yucks im grossed out with myself.. but oh wells..

anws anu and i just discovered that e airport's a really gd place to pple watch.. we should sit at e viewing hall.. then can watch planes and pple.. sho shiok.. but that is only when we haf too much time to spare.. hahas.. yeah these days haf been quite crappy tho.. i cant imagine how 3 days later would be like.. oh wells.. hahas.. life's like that.. oh rojak with only youtia's my new best friend..haha

2005-09-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

pple always lose their steps over the same thing. in this time ive seen more than one stumbling. and then i realise that i have fallen too. as i reach out to catch them fall, i lose my own balance and i fall deeper and harder. why no longer becomes a question since it holds answers that will never be revealed.

2005-09-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

ponned sch today..but still wore my sch u.. hahas.. n left home saying that i went to sch.. aint i a bad girl.. i think i am. but anws i did go to sch. i just didnt step in.. hahas.. i just loitered ard e rubbish dump gate to pass my friend some stuff.. how lame rite.. then i walked to marine parade lib.. nice morning excercise.. my habits r getting wierder..hahas. but anws.. i met up with my darlings vene and stella today!hahas.. but stupid weather was so crappy.. we cuddin really walk in e open.. hahas.. but we catched up quite a bit.. n it was good!! hahas yeah n im starting to feel myself missing pple.. i hate this kinda feeling..but oh wells.. but anws i went bowling yesterday!! been a long time since i did.. n i tot i would never ever bowl agn.. aft my horrific pass experiences.. hahas.. n i just maluated myself again yesterday.. i shant comment any furthur.. but tsk.. chris u really should stop suaning me.. at least lindy was supportive.. and ck and caiping were still quite nice.. while eunice and ash were almost equally bad.. so their forgiven for laughing at me.. hahas yeah.. anws odds xh esta and anu r my mugging motivators! hahas.. yeah.. thanks girls.. i love e mug bugs.. hahas.. kkies next week is gonna be so sad and boring for me.. oh wells..

WHY?????? why aren't my questions answered. why dun i understand anything anymore.. why????? i feel like shit. i really do. n im losing it. but ill wait. i'll wait if u ask me to. ill wait for just one more moment. and then ill let go. and dun ask me to turn back. cuz if we lose it all im not gonna look back and let it get onto me again. im tired. u know this isnt easy so set me free.

2005-08-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i don't understand people. sometimes i don't understand myself. most of e time, i don't understand e things i do. i don't understand what i want out of it. i dunno why i actually even thought of doing certain things. yeah and then sometimes i dun understand e things pple do. how they actually do such stuff. or sometimes why they even bother with something so insignificant. and then i get angry with myself. i get angry with e pple ard me. and i dun act like myself. and i dunno why i do that. i dunno why pple do that.

i ask why and nothing's answered. i wait for an answer and the wait's for eternity. i do what i think is right and it often ends up wrong. i dun do what i feel is wrong and then i realise tt that's e best way to do sth.

and then there will be times when i do sth and then i dunno how to continue fr it.. then i'll wonder why i even started on it in e first place. there are also times when i wished sth didn't happen as badly as i wished it did happen. there r times when ive decided not to say certain things and i say it in e end anyway. then there r times when ive planned my speech but ill just not say it out and let e opportunity slip. i dun understand a single thing. i dun understand this world im living in. but im still living in it.. nonetheless.

2005-08-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

im staring at e happy house pig on my bed.. and e huge fluffy snowman from russ.. hahas.. all occupying e same bed im on now.. plus some dino softoy(looks like e one fr bubble puzzle..hahas) and this heart shape thingy that's damn nice to touch.. wow.. my bed's getting crammed.. oh and e laptop's on my bed too.. ahahs but all these are removed when i slp at nite.. duh.. hahas..

anws im getting more o e mugging atmosphere now.. u know.. i actually really dunno wad to talk about.. but this part o e song's still ringing in my head.. n it's been stuck for like.. forever.. hahas.. "out of my mind. nothing makes sense anymore. i want u back in my life. that's all i'm breathing for.." okies.. i shall post this till i think of anything more to write.. btw.. e five pple u meet in heaven's really a good book.. so's paulo coehlo's eleven minutes.. hahas..

2005-08-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

why cant time stop at this moment. i dun want it to go on. i dun want pple to leave. i dun wanna spend e days knowing that it would be my last wk in sch with u guys. i cant stand e fact that i have to force myself to live with every moment knowing that time is a cruel thing. that all the times we've spent tgt will all be no more than memories. that all e joy and laughter will be washed into mere images.. all of parkway, starbucks, subway, town, neoprint taking, skirt and pants, sentosa, ecp, stayovers... everything..not much of them anymore yeah..

but on top of it all.. i just wanna say to all yr twos.. mug hard yeah. all e best. this is e final lap o e race. sho just qiong all e way. i wished i was there running this race with u guys.. but im not. so all i can do is just stand aside and cheer u guys on..n when e last part is tough and is full of fatigue.. ill be just there to reach out and pull u on.. so yeah.. fight till e end pple.. try ur best..
=)

2005-08-17T11:10:00.000+08:00

politics suck. so does superficial pple. bleahs.

2005-08-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

Arsenal rocks!

Reyes rocks!

so does my life. yayeee. i have a new aim.

n sth else for myself to know. lala.

2005-08-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

my prev entry din make sense at all. it's my twisted logic. yeah it is.

bitch in action. i just saw a photo of a bitch. brings back memories.

i love the sun. i wanna soak up the sun. yup.

otherwise my twisted logic still wun make sense.

2005-08-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

day and day the time awaits. he said it didnt matter.

but it did. it always will.

n the wind awaits. randomly staying still. what orderly manner.

flow on like the rain would. n then it wouldnt matter.

dear alexis..

2005-08-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to woobr.. my dear friend o almost 6 yrs.. hmms.. although she's damn cocky and not so innocent.. and she's really really lame and her jokes r not so funny.. she's still quite lovable and nice larh. so despite all her lousy points and stuff.. i've still gladly embraced her friendship with open arms.. so right now.. she's on e top of my most- missed friends list.. and i really really wanna see her soon.. hahahas.. yeah.. n she's having a les relationship with me now.. we're both passive btw.. yeah hahas.. so there's not much action for e kpoh pple out there to watch.. okies.. hahahas.. yeah.. i just wanna say that i love this friend to bits! things wouldnt have been e same without her in my life!! yeah this sounds just like a friendster testimonial.. maybe i should just copy and paste this into her friendster instead..hahahahaha...

2005-08-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

After spending some time browsing other blogs (of which i should have spent mugging).. i realised that my blog is super boring.. but being the ever so lazy shuting.. i obviously won't get down to making it more interesting.. or whatsoever.. okies..
anws.. watched charlie and e choc factory today with esta, anu, xh, anna and yafen.. yeah hahas was not bad larh.. n some parts were super lame lah.. hahas.. anws during e movie this guy was making a din behind e cinema over dunno wad crap lah.. then i got so pissed i just shouted over and asked him to shut up.. hahas.. hmms.. wonka's a really weird person tho.. okies everyone knows that.. haha n aft watching e chronicals of narnia trailer.. i sudd feel like digging up e book series and re reading them agn.. yeah.. so much for trying to spend more time mugging.. i feel myself slipping into slack zone again. or maybe it's cuz everyone else ard me is mugging so hard now.. i seem so slack cuz i dun really know what im doing. n then e national day hols had to come so im totally in e wrong mood agn.. tsk focus.. focus..
anws i always have so much that i wanna blog about and then ill forget it totally when im blogging.. hahas.. senile, absent minded me.. bleah.. kkies so i shall stop here for now.. and friendster's really screwed.. e photos part cant work.. hahas..
oh and anws, i sorta realised that e world is full of screwed up pple yeah.. pple who dun give a fuck abt just anything at all.. pple whu behave like the world hasnt changed since ur three years old and pple who'se selfish enough to insist that someone else is being selfish without even giving it a thought. i hate being surrounded by such pple.. or maybe.. i might be one of the above.. or maybe all three.. i dunno.. but at least there are angels out there who r nice enough to make up for e rotten population. okies act i shouldnt really be saying so much. yeah maybe it's best if pple just think thru things on their own..

2005-07-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

am i standing still?

subway still rocks. i cant stop blogging abt it. my tagboard's all abt it.

n my current squeeze is potter. e book i mean. potter's too little.

btw br, let's get our les plan out kies? hahahhaah..

oh my life's great, it couldnt be better.

im not standing still.

2005-07-24T16:22:00.000+08:00

life isnt all about me and i should've realised this a long time ago. my indulgence in my own problems have made me a very selfish person. of course there are pple out there whu r tons luckier than me. but even tho my problems really suck, there r those out there whu r going thru much worst. so i just wanna let everyone know that im sorry for being so selfish to those whu've cared so much. im sorry for hurting myself cuz i know it's hurting u guys too.life is short and my attitude towards it is all wrong and i know that i should change this attitude. to someone( u know who u r) who wants to change my attitude to life, ur suceeding and i agree with certain things u say. esp about my attitude towards life. yeah so anws, life's not so bad with so many pple ard me whu cares yeah. it doesnt really matter if e pple whu were suppose to care arent bothered, and it doesnt really matter if they're always doing things that family members wouldn't usually do. everyone has their own problems and maybe this is just e way their reacting to their own problems. after all, im blessed to have so many others whu cares so much. so yeah, life isnt all abt me. life is abt how i find my way thru it. it's abt e pple ard me. and it's abt making e best out o everything.
i wanna donate blood. okies this is quite no link ah.. hahas anws had this health screening thing this morning.. and apparently i got low blood pressure and my cholestrol is too low. which gives me e green light to eat junk!! hahas okies not really ah.. i think i gotta eat more fish.. yucks.. i hate fish.. hahas.. oh wells..

2005-07-21T13:31:00.000+08:00

turkey and bacon melt in parmesan rocks. otherwise life is boring for now. if only time could stop at certain moments, then as it goes on forever, e time with e terrible moments wouldnt even come.. know what i mean?

2005-07-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

maybe the world isnt such a bad place after all. e pple around me makes living all worthwhile. thanks pple.

i think my wisdom tooth is growing. and it's hurting. urgh i dun wanna waste money pulling it out.. ouch. it's been 5 days since i subwayed. since initial D on monday.. which was good! hahas.. at least edison was cute.. okies i mean DAMN cute! hahas.. shit i sound like a deprived little kid whu goes ard idolising pple.. yeah.. tgt with esther and su.. we met up with baos.. n i think baos and i got serious communication breakdown ar rite baos?? hahahas.. n she's getting lamer by e day.. hahas.. and su's really crazy over jay.. i think esther's e only sane one ard.. hahaha.. but oh wells.. meeting up was good.. yupps.. kies and today's fri alr.. e week passes sho quickly..hahas bleahs.. time flies..

2005-07-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

happy birthday yiwen and jianyang.
happy advanced bday to ruo, thongs and manda.

2005-07-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

u know what it feels like to wanna cut urself all over again? just when i thought ive grown out of such foolishness.. e urge to inflict pain on myself just came back.. since im so useless and i'm not worthy of anything at all.. e second best way to punish myself is to let myself bleed till i dry. i wanna cut but i cant find a sharp enuf blade. i wanna sink but i cant find anywhere deep enuf to disappear. when e troubles ended, i really thought it was e end of it all. n i thought i was free. but i guess i was so wrong. i picked myself up when i fell once. but ive fallen again n im not sure if i can stand up one more time. If i could just have just one wish, id wish that e world hasnt brought in such a redundant person like me. the pain of having to face the world is sth im too weak for. i have nth more to say.

2005-07-06T11:57:00.000+08:00

disappointment, happiness then anger. so many emotions filled in one day yesterday. im glad im still alive. im not pms-ing. i just hate it when so many things happen at once. feels like everything's spilling over. urgh.

2005-07-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

my craving for subway is growing by e day.. and i heard that s25 pple went to eat without me on thurs! hahahas.. hor esther?? anu?? hahhahas.. kkies nvm.. hmms.. oh wells.. yesterday was a long day mans.. all e way to e nite.. my cuz's wedding was fantastic! abit boring.. but e scenery was damn nice ar.. was at china club.. yeah. n i think im seriously getting lousy.. drank like two glasses of red wine and i felt tired.. like hur??? hahas.. but e food was quite nice ar.. and i could eat and DRINK in peace.. for now that is.. hahas.. then anws cuz i had to reach early to help out at e reception.. so basically when i reached home.. at abt 455.. i only had like 35 mins to change, bathe and everything.. then my other cousin came to pick me up.. hahas.. damn rushed ah.. kkies wah can see that im damn bored rite sho early in e morning dun slp come online.. but i couldnt sleep.. somehow.. too many things on my mind.. woke up at 655?? hahahhas.. abit early ah.. normal sch days dun wanna wake up sho early then today can slp until anytime then cant slp.. oh wells..
anws spent e pass two days at hougang sec.. how sad rite exams finish nv go out at all.. hahas.. anws was judo nationals individual. yeah thurs was for guys, fri for girls. anws.. to shaf and dick.. im proud of u guys!.. hmms.. overall everything was quite exciting.. next week still got teams.. think it'll be more exciting.. bleahs.. at least now got no more exams to worry abt.. just hope e papers wun be returned so soon.. tho i know e teachers always mark damn fast.. but aiyah.. shant think abt it first.. bleahs.. talking about "marking" papers.. i actually thought of our "darling" teacher in charge.. he actually keeps bananas in his oversized bag..hahas but then agn if he carries a small bag it'll look damn gay on him..
n oh yah!! met quite a few pple i havent seen in a long long time over e pass two days mans.. quite a dew st nicks peeps.. and weiz!! havent seen her in such a long time.. hahas.. yeah.. hmms.. okokies think this is a damn long entry havent typed so much for so long!! hahahas..

2005-06-29T19:30:00.001+08:00

no more exams. no more mugging. for now. ahahs. im online e minute i got home. stuff ive been deprived of for so many days! hahas. do i look different? almost everyone said i do. hahas. and then they say it's e longer hair. so.. i guess so. n okies.. just wanna say that i love this song! e tune's damn nice. and jewel rocks. ahah.

2 become 1
I watch u while you're sleeping
Messy hair, chest bare, moonlight on your skin
I wanna breathe u in
In the silence, words come easy
I can tell u now just how simple it's been 2 let u in
Don't move, this mood is a painting
We'll never find the same thing

Love, do not make a sound
Melt into me now
2 become 1
Love is so close 2 hurting
With a shake we could wake from our own dreaming
But we must make a vow
Cause I have waited a lifetime
Now is the right time

Love, do not make a sound
Melt into me now
2 become 1

Love, let's make time stand still
Let this moment last until
2 become 1

Like a bird owns its wings
Like a song belongs 2 melody
U belong 2 me
I fold your arms around me
Let your flesh, your breath, your love, surround me
Oh, u feel like home

Love, do not make a sound
Melt into me now
2 become 1

2005-06-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

okies.. basically this whole week has been spent mugging.. like how exciting..

mon was supp to mug with shaf.. then aft that we were running.. then in e end lazy him reached sch only at 2 plus?? okies but kenneth and chun yim came pass e class i was in and joined me so i wasnt that bored.. yeah then we only like.. mugged in e morning.. after lunch then cant concentrate alr.. n kenneth did sth damn mean!! hahahas.. tsktsk still say i childish.. who more childish ar.. hahas. then aft we went to seven eleven to get stuff.. then got some alcohol n e auntie din ask for our ics at all.. when we were all wearing sch stuff.. hahas..
kies then tues stayed at home cuz was mum's bday.. had tuition in e morn.. then went out for lunch and back.. then slack all e way.. hahas..
wed was slightly more productive.. met up with esta in sch and mugged str all e way.. e only break we had was e walk to seven eleven and when i went for a jog at ecp.. otherwise we mugged all e way.. which was good..
thurs i mugged with ruo in sch.. which wasnt that productive.. hahas.. we kept stoning and stuff.. ok more like i was e one stoning.. hahas.. so had to make up for it by mugging really hard that nite.. hahas.
then this morn.. fri morn.. had three hours of tuition straight.. i almost died.. hahas.. then nuahed for e rest of e day..
yeah that was my mugging journal for e week.. n thinking abt it.. i realised that i havent really gone out that much for e whole hols ah.. so much for calling it e hols.. like.. just training and tuition..i cant wait for exams to be over mans.. okies then there'll be nationals.. but at least i wun have to worry abt mugging anytime soon.. hahas.. then can go out and all if im free.. yeah.. so to everyone whom i havent met up in e hols ( quite alot o pple ah).. wait just abit more kies! then we shall go out..hahahahs.. funny isnt it.. pple wait for e hols to get out.. i wait for e start of sch.. but i've got so much to do and eat and buy! hahas.. okies for now im dreading e gp paper on monday.. gosh i cant believe it's compulsory to do that paper.. i mean.. it
s really dreadful.. hate it mans.. hahahas..
okies anws watched e america's top male model thing on wednesday.. in fact.. i was eagerly waiting for e show for e whole of wednesday.. hahas.. n i think some o e guys r really HOT.. so i guess this shows that i do get interested in guys.. but i like girls too.. so that makes me gay.. ahhas.. or maybe bi lah hor.. bleahs.. okies e stress for not being suffieciently prepared for e exams is getting onto me.. which makes me wanna ask why for everything.. but then agn i shouldnt be clogging up my thoughts.. at least not right now.. not with everything shitty.. shall just fill myself with wad im supposed to for e next two weeks.. if i can do so.. hahas.. ok im rubbishing agn..

2005-06-19T12:32:00.000+08:00

Just talked to someone n it got me thining. N i realised that sometimes things go deeper than u think. Every single thing is complicated. Life is complicated.
Everything that is happening, presently, is but a passing incident. If you look at the bigger picture, u'll realise that ur all alone.
Things come and go. so do people. even those whom ur closest to. those whom u tot would stick to u for ever. those who've been ard since e day u were born. those whu r related to u by blood.
The things people hold so dearly upon, things that has always seemed so familiar, changes into something that we'll never understand.
Sometimes i wonder why i get so affected by the little things pple say, by the little incidents that happen. When ultimately it isnt just about me, myself and I. Neither is it about then people ard me, nor simply anybody else.
There is in the end no purpose, no meaning whatsoever in everything.
There is no fresh chapter. Everything is but a lie, it isnt even a phase people go thru. It is a whole facade, the world, the universe and all things greater. We're disillusioned.

Sometimes i dwell so much on my multiple imperfections that i believe that e world would be a better place without me. But then again i realise that i am nothing, that wiht my existence or of any other kind, would it change anything at all.
It's scary and empty tho know everything is aimless.
Then again, I dont even see any explanation for this rubbish.

2005-06-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

camp was tiring. but it was good.

feeling damn sad. hais.

btw.. to all whu have been so concerned.. my high fever has subsided.. headaches r gone.. only got cough and flu now but i'll be fine. thanks yeah.

oh another thing.. dunno if i'll be online tmr.. so anw.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN!! in advance..hahas.

watched this dance performance last nite at victoria concert hall. it was good. and there were 6 male korean dancers n they were HOT. hahahas.. can everyone see me gushing.. i repeat they were hot.. but only one was cute. so yeah.. e performance was good.. yupps..

anws.. time really flies man. cant believe that e hols r more or less over.. i need to mug hard. hais.

Harry Potter Blunder

2005-06-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

hahas made this discovery today.. that there was a mistake in two of e harry potter books.. where e info didnt tally.. mms kkies if im not wrong.. to be a headboy of headgirl of Hogwarts, u have to be a prefect first right. so anw.. here's e mistake..

in e first book, harry potter and e philosopher's stone, on page 45, it says "Now yer mum an' dad were as good a wizard as I ever knew. Head Boy an' Girl at Hogwarts in their day!".. over here.. hagrid claims that harry's dad was a headboy.. which also implied that he was a prefect.

However, in book 5, harry potter and the order of the phoenix, in pg 155, " No one would have made me a prefect, i spent too much time in detention with james....... Harry's mood suddenly lifted. His father had not been a prefect either."..

So basically.. they contradict huh.. hahas okok u pple must be wondering why im so free to go analyse all these stuff rite.. hahas.. i did not lah.. it just struck me suddenly.hahas yupps okies.. otherwise ive been suffering at home these few days.. i tell u it's not fun getting high fever, headache, flu, cough and sore throat all at once. hahas.. and then it's like even tho ur under e covers of ur bed, u'll still be shivering like mad. otherwise ull be hot and sweating like crap.. even tho e fan's on at full blast towards u (e doc din allow me to have e air con on).. aiyah.. okok shall stop here.. i hate e blocked nose..

2005-06-07T20:30:00.000+08:00

hmms.. spent my afternoon highlighting my hair! tgt with ruo.. we took such a long time to make this decision k..hahas.. so we decided on red.. but e colour came out as reddish brown on me.. n it's so not obvious! only under e light at certain angles then can see.. but i guess it's good in a way? not too ah lian.. not too dull.. hahas. yeah.. oh n we watched russell peters again today..hahas.. !xobile...

okies other than that.. my life is still sianed.. oh n im reading harry potter bk5.. to keep up with bk 6 when it comes out.. n i cant wait for e movie to come out! i wanna see e cho chang they picked..hahas.. yeah.. plus there's so many other movies i wanna watch!! mr and mrs smith.. war of e worlds.. blahblah.. hahas.. yeah hmms..

kkies nth else to say.. except that these few days have been quite good.. hahas and i have sth else to think about.. that takes my mind of everything else that's troubling me.. hahas.. n yeah it's good and it makes me smile.. hee.. so yeah..

2005-06-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

mms.. had a really really delicious lunch today.. at goodwood park hotel.. shima restaurant.. tepanyaki.. hahas... everyone jealous?? everything tasted so good.. my e salmon was.. really damn fresh n juicy! but i dun really eat raw salmon so.. oh wells.. hahas.. n everything else was just good lah.. yeah so much for my weight loss plan for nationals..hahas.. bleahs.. mms.. okies.. but main priority first.. i really really have to focus on my studies now.. dun wanna screw up like last yr again.. yeah next is training. everything else that's bothering me will have to wait till mid years and nationals r over.. yeah.. in e meantime.. i really really really have to focus. plus with all e stuff on during e hols.. i really dun have much time left.. so much for calling it e HOLIDAYS. doesnt mean anything at all. it only makes me slacker.. n it brings me into e waste time mode.. which is totally wrong.. urgh

shite just wasted 9 msges on this mass msging thing to ask pple and inform them o sth.. hais.. n i dropped my phone for e 3rd time yesterday.. my phone's only one month old n it looks as if it has gone thru battle.. bleahs.. i heart ache ah.. hais okok sianed alr shall stop here. its' funny tho everytime ill think that i have shitloads to crap abt then ill end up forgetting everything..ha..

2005-05-31T21:27:00.000+08:00

my life's really boring. maybe i should bi guan xiu lian. as my tuition teacher says. n mug all e way thru. nope. then ill have no life. wad a boring mugger. bleah. at least training's keeping me a little less bored. n im desperate to meet up with my darlings fr all my cliques!! do u all hear me! i wanna meet! soon! hahas.. esp with aunty woo, ah ma su, leens, geks, jos, vene, stella, yuenmei, shijia, jiahui, wens, ruo(okies i see u alot..ha), weiz, xun, jess, val, ser, ethel, blahblahblah.. n 04s25! r u guys doing anything???dun bi guan xiu lian for too long.. e sun is bright n shining everyday..sunset bay's waiting for us.. hahas.. n 05s25 too..okies.. more like..lindy,ck,caiping,chris,sulin,ash,eunice,shir..wadzzup pple?? hahas okies.. i think that i think im too free..hahahs.. but nope i must biguanxiulian. ok im insane.

Scars
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
and I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
and I tried to grab your hand
and I left my heart open
but you didn't understand
but you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

u know what.. i love this song.. im feeling damn vengeful and i think this song's really real.. somehow..

2005-05-27T20:03:00.000+08:00

First up.. congrats to e hockey girls! to esther, susan, abby, shin, liyana, qianru, michelle.. im so proud of u girls.. yeah n thanks for e half day off..hahas.. anws i think im really developing a habit for subway.. n it's really bad.. cuz it's draining my cash supply.. i ate it 3 times within 4 days this week.. tsk.. plus im drawing money more often than i should.. double tsk. n i watched 4 movies this month! hahas okies actually it's not alot.. but oh wells.. i din pay for two o e movies i watched.. so it's still ok..ha.. yeah watched kingdom of heaven, house of wax, star wars ep III and Monster in law today.. it's quite a funny show. yeah then tgt with anu, xh, mandy and anna.. we went to take neoprint.. yeah..

2005-05-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

e weekend was quite hectic!! hahas.. kkies sat had to rush home after training then rush out in e rain to meet esther, manda, dick, thong, eetse for sleepover. hahas we ate zhicha.. yum! then watched e FA cup.. Arsenal won! hahas yay yay! poor reyes got sent off.. but he's still a winner..haha. then gotta get home e next morning to get changed to go out to watch Star Wars ep III.. hahas it was good.. damn good.. i love e darth vader suit.. totally cool.. n i watched it for free! hahas. n i had free popcorn too!!hahahas.. then anws e show ended quite late in e afternoon.. then went str to my cousin's place.. where we watched ep 4.. to continue fr ep 3..hahas.. then by e time i got home i was so super incredibly tired.. then just slept all e way till this morning.. then had sakae for lunch!! hahas.. n gelato for dessert.. yeah.. then now im home blogging.. n i din do anything for e entire weekend at all.. as in totally..hahas.. my pencil case is still in my bag..haha.. im sho lazy!!! hahas okok shall stop here for now..

2005-05-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

First up.. just wanna say.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOO BAORU!!!

okies.. basically e week just flew past again.. wow.. mms.. okok this week was.. sian.. quite alot o things have been happening. all sorts of things to all sorts of pple.somehow my inner being feels diff. okies.. this sounds funny.. ah wadever.. hahas nth much to say also. sudd so many things happening in life. yet it's damn aimless somehow. i dun feel particularly sad. neither do i feel particularly happy. okok i really dun feel like blogging today. shall stop here.

2005-05-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

mms.. okies gonna talk bout yesterday.. went to see e doc early in e morning for my "tumour".. e doc was like checking around then he said that i needed xrays.. so i went to hougang polyclinic for e xrays.. whch cost freaking 21 bucks. then went back to e clinic.. doc said i had no broken bones.. so i wasted 21 bucks.. then ltr he deduced that i tore my tendon.. so basically he said he had to give me an injection.. which was supposed to ease e pain n heal e thing. so anws.. he gave me no warning abt it or whatsoever.. so i thought it was yet another injection.. like just some ant bite.. but i was so totally wrong.. he was like searching for e most painful portion.. then before i knew it i felt this intensed sharp pain.. which was.. i cant describe it..hahas.. then aft that i could feel e needle being pushed in deeper.. bleah.. but okies it managed to numb e pain after that.. so yeah.. now i just gotta wait for about 3 days or so for e medicine to take effect.. yeah so in e meantime.. it's no training, no napfa and no pe for me. n i get e mc to rest for about a week! yeps.. n e jab costs me another freaking i think.. 30 bucks?? hais.. kkies but anws.. i went out last night to watch house of wax.. n i watched it for free totally cuz someone paid for e tickets.. e freaking 9.50 tickets. hahas.. n we had popcorn and milk hello panda (my recent addiction).. and drinks.. of which i din have to pay a single cent for too..hahahas.. yeah but anws.. house of wax was gory.. n i tot it was some supernatural thing so i was fully armed with my sweater n stuff.. then i realised it wasnt.. hahas.. but anws.. i had fun.. n i had this nice dinner too.. so yeah.. that was yesterday.. today im stuck at home..with nth much to do.. except maybe catch up on some sleep.. yup..

2005-05-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

kies.. friday e thirteen.. but oh wells.. it was pretty fine for me.. first of all.. congrats to ck for being e housecapt!! ha.. anws went for subway with esther, anu and manda.. then we met shin and abby.. then we went to heeren to take neoprints. which was pretty screwed cuz eir all laughing at me over sth.. hrmph!! haha. but anws on e way to heeren i saw pierre png n andre de cruz..then i attempted calling his name.. but pronounced it wrongly.. so i got laughed at again.. bleah. then we went to paragon delifrance to slack..without buying anything fr delifrance..ha.. then anws..
met baoru, val and carol aft that!! cuz we were all ard town.. had a really good talk at delifrance.. carol was damn crazy.. kept laughing like nobody's business.ha.. but yeah enjoyed e short period o time i had with e girls.. it's been such a long time since i saw val n br!! hahas.. br's still as slim..ha and her hair's super long now lah!.. as compared to last time...ha.. yeah then had to go off tho i was totally enjoying myself.. yeah.. ha.. m now stuck in some house.. hee..

anws for now.. i've heard enuf things to change my mind about certain things n im trying hard to do so n i think im gonna make it.. so yeah.. i just hope that nth else happens to make me decide otherwise. i just have to be strong i guess. n i think another thing might be coming my way to push me down. if it really happens.. ill let u guys know abt it.. n i hope i'll get thru it.. yupps